Joyful in the mundane

     As I wade through the mounds of laundry and dirty dishes, stripping sheets and making beds, cleaning toilets and tubs, all while trying to keep my toddler from tearing the house down. The tasks of a stay at home mom can become daunting and sometimes it can seem that our lists of to do's are never ending. I guess you could say I have the gift of hospitality, I love hosting people and I feel like I was created to be the proverbs 31 woman, I just love being in the kitchen and cooking and cleaning, doing wife and mom things, to me its a ministry and a way of showing my love and heart to my family and friends.  I was talking with a friends today and sharing my stress as I was getting my house back in order, after hosting friends for a week, with my in laws coming to visit in one day. I used the allegory of my race and how much words have an affect on my attitude and behavior. For those of you who have ever attended or participated in a race you know that people line up along the side of the race, literally the whole way. They are holding signs with encouraging words and clapping and giving you those words you need to hear to keep moving. Now those people never did anything to physically make the run easier but simply reminded me of what I trained for how well I was doing and that was enough to totally refuel my heart and soul. I thrive off of those powerful words of life and love, encouragement and affirmations <--- definitely my love language. So often I find myself seeking that solely from my husband and while that is good and always feels nice, I think I need to be seeking that from the Lord. He is the one who can fulfill all that in my life, if only I take the time to be quiet and listen to His voice. I do have to brag on my husband, as this hasn't always been a strong point in his life. However, this past few weeks he has really been such an encouragement to me in his words of affirmation and in his actions. I think seeing me take on a lot this past week with our friends here really opened his eyes to the amount of things I do on a day to day basis. It just warmed my heart and lifted my soul to hear him thank me and encourage me, to see him chip in around the house as I was overloaded. Those sweet moments of relief and encouragement do so much to a tired mamas heart and soul. I have always loved those moms who just seem to have it all together, the cooking, the cleaning, the perfect children and awesome relationship with their husbands. I wondered for so long how they could seem to be so joyful when day to day life as a mom is so trying and hard. Over the last few months the Lord has really worked in my heart and life and showed me all these areas that He can fulfill in my life where I feel inadequate. So in all areas of my life I have began to allow him to fulfill, even when other people have the ability to do that, be it my husband or friends, and what has happened is amazing. I am thriving in these areas because I am getting my love and affirmation from the one who created me so the things which are daunting and so mundane I can have such joy in. You want to know what else is amazing, and I am so certain this is how God created it to be, if only we would listen and obey. My husband is seeing my joy in the everyday life, and he is giving me encouragement and helping out in different area. Now instead of that being my only source of encouragement and fuel for my soul, cause remember I am now getting all that from the Lord so my cup in full. NOW, my cup is running over, because I am getting above and beyond my actual need, and now feel abundantly loved and cherished. So sweet mama friends, I hope this is able to bring some encouragement to you heart and soul. We are able to have Joy in the mundane when we have Christ as our source of joy and contentment. 💕

Love,

Morgan 

A shift in our heart, a change in our lives

   I wanted to address and share what some of you may be questioning with my most recent posts. I have changed up the name of our Facebook  page as well as the content I will be blogging and posting about. With this new shift in our heart and thinking, my focus will no longer be solely on Infertility blogging but a much broader scope. I will be sharing what the Lord is doing in our hearts and lives, things we are experiencing and enjoying in life. As well as sharing the struggles that come along with life. I will still be sharing my heart and raising awareness for infertility and loss but as we hold to the promise the Lord has given to us of pregnancy I have been shifting my words and thinking. I am no  longer "infertile" and it's not "if I get pregnant" or "I can't get pregnant" but rather- "when we get pregnant" and "it hasn't happened yet but we can't wait for it". I truely believe that our words and our thinking really have an affect on our hearts and minds. When we tell ourselves something over and over even if it isn't truth it begins to feel like it is. Now like I said in my last post, please don't personalize all of this. I am in no way downgrading infertility, it's been our life for so many years and I know the pain and heartache that comes from it. I also know and believe that God is control and so good, but also has a different and amazing plan for each and every one of us. So as much as I want this to be an encouragement to those of you walking through this journey, please know I understand that God may be saying something else to you personally regarding  your journey.   I recently watched a sermon by a pastor based out of Miami, Florida. He and his wife had struggled with infertility for 8 years and were told by doctors that they would never get pregnant. They however, heard a word from the Lord and knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that the Lord had told them that they would get pregnant. Months and years went by and nothing, even though they knew what the Lord had promised it was hard to understand why it was taking so long when they knew He had said this. They are currently pregnant!! How amazing is that? I can relate to this so much and if I am completely honest with myself I know that the Lord told me that we would become pregnant probably about 4 years ago. However, after so many months and years I started to doubt and fear and become weary in the waiting. Now I know the Lord has had a purpose in our journey so far that has led us to adopt our son and become parents and I wouldn't change that for anything! I just wanted to encouraging you to hold on to the promise that God has given you, NO MATTER WHAT. If it has been 2 weeks or 10 years since He gave you that promise, hold tight. We can't see the entire picture and what God is doing in our lives through our circumstance that can seem awful. All the while knowing but wanting to doubt this promise He gave. It can often feel like we are in the middle of an awful storm with no escape from the pain that will come from it but what we can't see is that His promise in the midst of the storm. A miracle in motion, as this pastor called it, and I just love that. I know we have this amazing miracle happening and I love that its in process and I can't wait for it to come to to pass. So be encouraged my friends while you may be in the middle of a terrible storm and struggle His promise can still stand through the storm.

I'm still in Your hands, this is my confidence. 

💖Morgan💖